Showing posts with label Deveikus. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Deveikus. Show all posts

Thursday, February 12, 2009

A Song of Deveikus With Hashem


No Googling allowed.
I feel connected, protected
It's like You're sitting right here
with me all the time
You hear me, You're near me,
And everything else is going be alright


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Thursday, December 25, 2008

Should We Teach People That The Torah is the Best Worldly Tool?


When I was first becoming observant, one book that had a great effect on my thinking was Tradition in a Rootless World: Women Turn to Orthodox Judaism. It was written by a non-frum sociologist who immersed herself in two different communities of Baalei Teshuva to learn why they chose to become observant and in what ways they differed. She spent a few weeks studying at a Beis Chana Chabad Seminary for Baalos Teshuva and several weeks with the Lincoln Square Synagogue, a center for many modern orthodox Baalei Teshuva in Manhattan.

One of the major impressions that I had from this book, which, to me, reflected negatively on the modern orthodox approach to teaching Baalei Teshuva at Lincoln Square, was that their whole approach was completely this-world centered. They taught how Judaism and observance leads to a better life in this world. They showed people how being observant was healthier physically, emotionally and socially. They showed people how, if they became more observant, they could have better lives in this world. This was their main approach to outreach.

In contrast, the approach at the Chabad seminary was to encourage the women to grow in their committment to Yiddishkeit by focusing mostly on the spiritual side of it. They showed the people there how they could transcend this world and connect to G-d through keeping the Torah.

My impression was that the more "right wing" approach was to take a more direct route and actually focus on the real deal, which is that religion is supposed to bring a person closer to G-d, not merely a more "effective" life in this finite world.

However, I saw a very interesting Kedushas Levi in Parshas Vayishlach (5th piece) which speaks about this basic concept. He talks about two different stages in a person's development. He says that when one is first beginning to get closer to G-d, the yetzer hara is very strong. The person is still so steeped in "this-world", that they have no language or frame of reference for really focusing on the transcendent, which just doesn't move the person at that stage because he just doesn't speak that language yet. In order to grow in observance at that stage, a person can only fight their yetzer hara by focusing on all of the good things of this world that a person gets by keeping the Torah. In such a way, the yetzer hara is pacified and lays off a bit, and the person can grow.

But in "stage 2," when a person is already davuk, cleaving to Hashem, then he should no longer focus on the good things of this world that the Torah will bring him. Rather, he should only focus on giving nachas ruach, pleasure to Hashem as his only motivation. At this stage, the nefesh haEloki, the G-dly soul, is so revealed that one does not need the crutch of focusing on the worldly benefits of Torah anymore to subjugate the yetzer hara. The lure of greater deveikus with Hashem and the ability to give Him nachas ruach through one's avodah is incentive enough.

After seeing this piece in Kedushas Levi, I realized that both approaches, the Lincoln Square approach and the Chabad approach from that book are both necessary for different people, and for the same people in different stages of their development. I don't actually know whether the teachers at Lincoln Squqre are actually aware of "Stage 2" or not. I don't know if they intended to help influence the members of their community to the more spiritual, G-d oriented, transcendent side of Yiddishkeit when they were ready or not. But the Kedushas Levi is teaching that this method should not be shunned. It is something necessary for each of us in the beginning stages of our avodah (which can often take a lifetime) and should be used without embarrassment because for those of us coming from a secular culture, the worldy benefits are the only ones which will speak to us until we learn how much more is out there.

I don't think that only one or the other approaches are right. We have to know ourselves to discern which strategy to pursue when fighting our own yetzer haras and which is the right approach when teaching others. We have to know which language we and others understand and which we don't. IY"H, we should all be zoche to take the right approach in our own inner work and when trying to be mashpiah in a positive and productive way on others.

-Dixie Yid

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Monday, September 15, 2008

Bilvavi Shiurim from U.S. Tour Now Available Online!


At 11:30 last night, b'ezras Hashem, Rav Shwartz, the author of the Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh seforim returned to Eretz Yisroel. It was a mind bending experience for many of us in many different ways, but b'ezras Hashem, everything should be ultimately toward the purpose of brining more Yidden closer to Avihem Shebashamayim, their Father in Heaven.

IY"H, over the next few days I hope to put up a couple more shiurim (Englewood from yesterday morning at Rabbi Zev Reichman's Shul & the Boro Park shiur). Also, I hope to slowly start putting up some feelings, thoughts and observations on the trip. Additionally, several of the shiurim were recorded on video and I hope to post those as well, especially the shiur at Rabbi Rudinsky's Shul on Sept. 11th, 2008 & the historic spur-of-the-moment shiur givin at Madreigos in Lawrence, NY, where the Rav bore his heart and told over the story of his own personal journey to the Ribbono Shel Olam.

Boca Raton Synagogue - Sunday night, September 7, 2008 - In this discussion, the Rav explains the need to find your true inner ratzon (will), in order to live your life according to what you really want. Although we know that the inner ratzon is to become close to Hashem, if we do not become conscious of it, we will not grow much through the many positive actions that we do. This idea was very new to several of the attendants, and you will hear how the Rav deals with their questions and challenges concerning this idea.

Boca Raton Girl's High School - Monday morning, September 8, 2008 - English Translation: Do We Want All of Judaism? - Many of us go through life without really thinking about why we are here and why we act as we do. This thought-provoking class urges us to take time daily to decide what we really want in life and adjust our lives accordingly. In the context of this discussion, you will learn why Rosh HaShanah is a joyous day that we should really anticipate.

Manhattan Ramat Orah - Monday night, September 8, 2008 - Topic: Living in Manhattan - English Translation- This very powerful speech compares our society to the dor hamabul (Generation of the Flood). Mistakes in attitude and behavior have been compounding for generations, and very few people realize how low we have sunk from the way life was meant to be. We need to rethink our whole way of life and make major changes if we really want to be proper Jews.

Madgregos Kollel Far Rockaway - Tuesday morning, September 9, 2008 - Topic: the Rav's personal journey to avodas Hashem - Includes simultaneous English Translation by Rabbi Reuven Boshnack - A MUST LISTEN! - We all know and believe that Torah and mitzvos are what life is all about, but do we really feel that these are what make our lives meaningful? Listen to the Rav's personal account of how he searched and grappled with these issues, and how he came to feel these truths in his own heart. He promises that we can get the same results as he did. Presented with English translation.

MTA - YU's High School - 10th Grade Shiur

MTA - YU's High School - 12th Grade Shiur

Ner Yisrael - Baltimore - Wednesday afternoon, September 10, 2008- Ner Yisroel- A yeshiva student is not only someone who learns Torah a good part of the day; he has a special bond with Hashem through his constant involvement in Torah. This involvement is not only a matter of spending a lot of time learning, but a process of developing the mind through intensive thought about Torah, even when not in front of a sefer. This shiur explains how any yeshiva student can achieve this state, regardless of special abilities.

Yeshiva in Carteret, New Jersey - Wednesday morning, September 10, 2008 - A yeshiva student must understand that Torah study demands a lifetime commitment. Otherwise, even while he is learning, he does not respect the fact that Torah is life, and that everything else is only as substantial as an image on a movie screen. Although in earlier generations, there were some talmidei chachamim who took off time from learning for other endeavors, nowadays, it is much more difficult to maintain proper yiras shamayim and a real connectiion to Torah if one mingles with the secular world.

Baltimore Bilvavi Chabura - at Shomrei Emunah - Wednesday, September 10, 2008 - Bilvavi Chaburah in Baltimore- Learn about the dual nature of Rosh HaShanah: a time to cry and a time when we must not cry, a time when we rise to the heavens and a time when we descend to the depths. Discover how Tisha B'Av prepares us for Rosh HaShanah and how our relationship to Hashem on Rosh HaShanah is very different from that of Yom Kippur. This shiur not only explains these issues, but also gives guidance for dealing with the inevitable ups and downs in our spiritual lives.

Ohr Somayach Monsey - Thursday, September 11, 2008 - Topic: Practical Steps for the post-Baal Teshuva stage

Ohr Yisrael Monsey - Thursday, September 11, 2008 - This brief class contains a treasury of guidance for the newly observant Jew seeking to fully adjust to a Torah lifestyle. The primacy of studying and keeping halachah is explained, including the outlook we should have on its importance. There is also a discussion of the need to study Torah in depth, with suggestions for enabling this study to fashion a new way of thinking that will truly make one an "insider" in Judaism.
English Translation: Rav Rudinsky's Synagogue Monsey - Thursday, September 11, 2008
Rabbi Rudinsky's Shul: Monsey - Thursday, 9/1/08 - Chazal (based on Tehillim) refer to Rosh HaShanah as keseh, the time of covering. This can be explained to mean that the new year must be built on top of a basis from the previous year, so that it covers the previous year and rises above it. In Elul, we must fashion this basis through at least intermittent periods of sensing Hashem's Presence, and then, in the Aseres Yemei Teshuvah, we can achieve this sense constantly.

Shor Yashuv Far Rockaway - Motzoi Shabbos, September 13th, 2008 at Yeshiva Shor Yoshuv in Lawrence, NY

Far Rockaway Melava Malka - Melaveh Malka by Danny and Yaffa Moskowitz, Motzoi Shabbos September 13, 2008 - Topic: Explaining the inyan of telling over stories of Tzadikim on Motzoi Shabbos

Englewood - Sunday morning September 14, 2008 at Rabbi Zev Reichman's Shul - Simultaneous trasnalation by Rabbi Reichman

Boro Park - At Blumenfrucht family - Sunday evening, September 14, 2008 - English Translation: Do We Want Closeness With Hashem? - We know we are judged on Rosh HaShanah, but what is the difference between the judgment of the two days? In this class, the Rav explains that each day has its own kind of judgment, and that we should strive to be among those few who are judged on the first day. In the context of this discussion, we learn how our own hearts can serve the function of the Bais HaMikdash -- a resting place for the Divine Presence.

-Dixie Yid

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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Ideas on Making Yiddishkeit the Most Exciting Thing in Your Life


"Duvid" has wrote me a couple of e-mails in response to my post the other day about the quote from Rav Freifeld that "If the only way we can sell our children on Torah is by forbidding everything else, then we are bankrupt." He gave me permission to publish them because I think his ideas are worth sharing! Here you go:

First of all we should understand that it's impossible to make yiddishkeit more exciting than rock concerts. Ze kneged ze asa Elokim, implies that the sitra achara can be just as powerful (or seem so) as the kdusha. But it also implies that we CAN make yiddishkeit AS exciting and a rock concert!

Second, it's important to understand that the solution already exists, we just have to look in the right place to find it.

Now, we really have to define what we mean by excitement. When people go to concerts or soccer games they don't look for intellectual or emotional excitement. They look for the type of excitements that GETS INTO THEIR BLOOD AND BONES! If we can truly provide that in yiddishkeit, then we've almost won the game.

So first of all, this type if excitement does exist in yiddishkeit. If anyone want's to FEEL yiddishkeit IN HIS VERY BONES he's better go to Meron on Lag Baomer or to Uman on Rosh Hashana, and I think it is important to have these experiences from time to time, even though obviously yiddishkeit is not about "experiences", and even when experiencing these things one should not look for the experience but rather concentrate on one's avoda. However, the experience of feeling kdusha in one's very flesh is indeed very important, and should, and even must be felt to some extent every time one davens or does any davar sheb'kdusha. Like David Hamelech sais many times "bsari - my very flesh...". I think only then one will not pay any attention to a rock concert...

Now, we gotta discuss things that have crept into normative yiddishkeit that actually work against this concept. May be some other time...

That's as far as excitement. Of course, there're more things that contribute to people leaving yidishkeit unfortunately.

Our yiddishkeit should start shifting from being exclusively intellectual / mussar oriented to being EXPERIENTIAL. There's an undercurrent attitude in yiddishkeit now that sais experiences is not what yiddishkeit is about, they're sort of like a b'dieved thing... Or that one is not ready for these experiences untill he'd finished all of Shas... (I've witnessed in one yeshiva, after an unusially labedik dancing at kabalas Shabbos, the rosh yeshiva gave his dvar Torah in which he implied that one should not really do these things unless one learns Gemora 17 hours a day...) I think it's important to realize that experience is an integral part of yiddishkeit, and one has to properly cultivate those experiences, as well as properly prepare for them (and that's something that mechanchim should davka be thinking about, how to guide kids to experience spirituality in a proper way).

I have to say that this shift would require of us to drop some litvishe tendencies in favour of adopting chassidish ones (i don't know if you want to post that). (DY: :-D)

And most importantly, we have to remember what we're up against. If it's rock concerts, then the holy experiences we have have to match them! That's why I mentioned davka Meron and Uman...

There's more I could write, but let me just tell you of an experience (not the type i was writing about, just something i observed) that i had rescently, that's connected to your post:

Two Shabboses ago we visited my wife's cousin, they live in Bat Ayin, a yishuv south of Yerushalaim on the way to Chevron. It's a "Chabakuk" kind of place (you know, Chabakuk stands for Chabad, Breslov, Carlebach, and R' Kuk :-) ) with all different "spiritual" types. On Shabbos morning I went to the Breslov minyan. So after davening they danced a bit, and then put tables together, made kiddush, and sat down for what's called "sichat chaverim" (that's actually a part of their avoda, not stam)... Boy, was that something I enjoyed seeing! First of all, they start with a joke. B'davka. As they sat down they said "yesh l'mishehu b'dicha?" So they came up with some old joke that went something like "whats in common between a Breslover and a Subaru? - that they're always doing tikunim..." Then they read a bit from the sipurei maasiyos, and then they started this free flowing, funny, friendly conversation (there were about 15 - 20 of them), all revolving about holy topics, avodas hashem, how to overcome obsticles, how to be "tamim", etc. What impressed me about it was that it just seemed so natural! As if that's really what they want to talk about and nothing else! And they were funny too. And when some of them started arguing and it got beyond a certain point they all started singing... Teanagers and kids were sitting at the sides and listening in, enjoying every minute. I honestly can't imagine one of those kids thinking of yiddishkeit as boring... And after they finished, they put on their shtreimels (those of them that wear shtreimels - they're all dressed differently), and went home with their M16s hanging over their golden Yerushalmi bekeshers... Loooove that.

-"Duvid"

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Bringing Knowledge of "The Purpose" Into Every Mitzvah - Bilvavi


The following is a suggested, example tefillah, which I have translated from the 5th chelek of Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh, #s 8 and 9:

There are so many mitzvos, but Chazal have revealed to us that there are three pillars upon which the world stands; Torah, Avodah and Gemilus Chasadim. Behold, Master of the World, learning Torah is cleaving to you as it was written and expanded upon in the sefer "Nefesh HaChaim." Avodah... since we do not have Korbanos today, in their place the way to get closer to you is through Tefillah. What is Tefillah? It is speaking with You Hashem! And isn't Tefillah, then, a way of getting close to You? Gemilus Chasadim is cleaving to Your ways. All of your ways are kindness, and the whole purpose of the creation of Your world is to give goodness to those who You created. Master of the World, through these three pillars I am able to get close to You. But I must remember all of the time that that these three pillars are the way to get closer to you, and not, G-d forbid, to learn Torah and forget you, Daven and forget you and do chesed and forget you. Because if I, G-d forbid, learn Torah, Daven and do chesed behold I will have forgotten the whole purpose of Torah, TEfillah, and doing chesed, the whole purpose of life. Therefore, Master of the World, I want to remember every time I am involved with one of these three pillars, the reason why I am doing them and what their purpose is.

Master of the World, behold I accept upon myself, Bli Neder, to remember whenever I begin to learn Your holy Torah, not to begin to learn suddenly. Rather, I will first speak to you every time and say 'Master of the World, behold I am going to learn Your holy Torah. Why am I going to learn it? Because I want to be close to You, and I want to get close to You through learning Torah let me merit to attain this! And so too while I am learning, behodl I want to remember every time why I am learning. ThereforeI want to remember this about once every half hour. (Over time, this gap should shrink to just a few minutes and thememory will be triggered automatically.) The matter should be living in me, that everything that I learn should be in order to get closer to You, and I will not give up hope if I forget this. I will try, bli neder to remember this every time. And I beg You, Hashem, that you should help me, and cause me to remember this all of the time until the matter is extremely fixed in my heart...

(Certainly, one needs to clarrify to himself why, indeed he is going and not to say words that his heart does not feel at all. But rather to clarify in his heart what, in truth he wants. And even if this is even part of what his heart wants, he should still say these words with full confidence, that he feels this in his heart and that his desire is that his main feelings should be such and such, etc. But the main thingis that he should speak the truth. "דֹּבֵר שְׁקָרִים לֹא-יִכּוֹן, לְנֶגֶד עֵינָי." "One who speaks falsehood will not dwell before Me." (Tehillim 101:7).

-Dixie Yid

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Tuesday, May 27, 2008

My Favorite Pasuk - A Guest Posting by Me at ASJ


Click on over to A Simple Jew, where he put up my answer to the following question:

A Simple Jew asks:

ודובר אמת בלבבו ("...and speak the truth within his heart")
Seeing these words in the siddur each morning reminds me of this and this. I am grateful that these words confront me before I start the day and help keep my thoughts, speech, and actions in check. Without them, I would be more prone to following the illogical logic and rationalizations of my mind.

Is there a verse in the siddur or in sefer you learn regularly that serves a similar function for you?

Dixie Yid Answers...

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

The Most Important Shiur You'll Ever Hear in Your Jewish Life


I have to share with you a certain speech given by Rav Moshe Weinberger at the Philadelphia Community Kollel (former link was to this shiur - now different). It was given at exacly this time of year, right after parshas Behar and leading up to Shavuos. If you're not already a "chassid" of Rav Weinberger, (or even if you are, as a reminder) you have to hear this speech. Much of it is the same as the shiur I first heard by him at a Hashevaynu Retreat about 10 years ago, that first made me "fall in love" with what he was teaching. When you listen, you will see why.

CLICK HERE to listen to or download the shiur. This has a couple of classic stories from Rav Weinberger, including the hilarious "jukim" story, and the must-listen "Lost Horse" story. It is so fundamental to Yiddishkeit to hear this shiur.

Update 3/16/10: It was pointed out by a commenter and in an e-mail today that the shiur that I had previously linked to here is no longer hosted by the Philadeplphia Community Kollel website. Therefore, I just changed the link above to another shiur which is equally fundamental. Enjoy.

A big thank you to Yoni Henner who (originally) pointed me to this shiur!

-Dixie Yid

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Monday, April 7, 2008

Pizza Delivery Tipping, נהמא דכיסופא, Orlah, & Freeloading


Rav Moshe Chaim Luzzato, in Derech Hashem I:2:2, lays out one of the central pillars upon which our understanding of the purpose of life is based. There, after he discusses the concept that Hashem created mankind in order to give good to another, and that since that good must ultimately be a connection to Hashem Himself, the only perfect good, he teaches something more about the form of that goodness. It must be a goodness which is earned, where the recipient of that good is the master of it, who has "earned" it to some extent or another.

This is the concept of "נהמא דכיסופא," the "bread of humiliation," found in the Zohar. Receiving a free gift, without doing anything in return, is called "the bread of humiliation" because one feels embarrassed that he does not stand on his own, but has to "freeload" on someone else. Even though one is receiving something that he wants, the good has a bad taste in his mouth because it comes with the humiliation that he is a "free rider." This is why Hashem's wisdom decreed that we must do something to "earn" the ultimate good, Deveikus with Hashem.

The Gemara (Yerushalmi Orlah 1:3 (Daf 6a))says that "דאכיל מן חבריה בהית מסתכל ביה," "one who eats the bread of his friend is embarrassed to look at his face."

The Gemara discusses the halacha of Orlah, the prohibition of eating the first three years' fruits of a tree. The basis of the isur is the concept that when a Orlah tree is growing too close to another tree without the Isur of Orlah, when the non-Orlah tree derives its nutrition from the Orlah one, then this is the case where the Torah forbids that plant. And from this halacha, we can see the concept of נהמא דכיסופא as well. When the non-Orlah plant's leaves are facing the Orlah plant, then it is known that it must not be receiving any sustenance from the Orlah plant since it is not embarrassed to face it. But when it's leaves are facing away from the Orlah plant, it is known that it is indeed receiving sustenance from the Orlah plant, and it is because of the humiliation of receiving free sustenance, that it faces away from the Orlah plant. ("ואם דבר בריא שהוא חי מכח הילדה דבר הכל אסור...כיצד הוא יודע רבי ביבי בשם רבי חנינה אם היו העלים הפוכין כלפי הילדה דבר בריא שהוא חי מכח הזקנה ואם היו העלים הפוכין כלפי הזקנה דבר בריא שהוא חי מכח הילדה.")

One other mashal, analogy, to understand this concept came to me one time when my parents were visiting. We ordered pizza to be delivered to the house for dinner one night. The delivery guy looked really down, but when my Dad gave him a relatively generous tip, he really perked up and is spirits really improved. It got me to thinking about the different ways people react to receiving a "free gift."

Would I get the same reaction if I saw a friend at work who looked like he wasn't so happy and I handed him a twenty dollar bill and said, "Here you go man. You're looking down. Hopefully this will cheer you up!"? Probably the guy would think that I was nuts and wouldn't even accept the money. And the process certainly would not make him happier.

However, when you give someone a tip, it does cheer them up. What's the difference? In both cases, you don't have to give the person any money. In the case of the pizza delivery guy, the pizza is already paid for separately. The only difference is that your friend at work has done nothing to earn those twenty dollars, whereas the pizza delivery guy has done something to "earn" it. That's why receiving the money makes him feel good and not the opposite.

I like this mashal because I think the idea of a tip is more comparable to our reward from Hashem than the idea of one's salary from his job. In the case of a tip, one is doing some work in exchange for the tip. But the giving of the tip is still a gift that comes from the generosity of the giver, since it is not required. Similarly, Hashem is still giving us the perfect good, Deveikus with Him, through his beneficient nature. However, the good is perfect and not subject to the deficiency of being נהמא דכיסופא, a free gift, since we have done some avodas Hashem, some service of Hashem "in exchange" for the goodness Hashem gives us.



May we merit to do our utmost to serve Hashem and thereby increase the pleasure we get from Deveikus to Him!

-Dixie Yid

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Sunday, April 6, 2008

One Must First Know Himself in Order to Know Hashem


In Oros Hateshuva 15:9, Rav Kook says that as long as a person does not know his true, inner self, then he will be filled with confusion and uncertainty.

According to my rebbe's explanation of this idea in Rav Kook, a person cannot connect to Hashem, achieve Deveikus with Hashem, if he does not first really know himself. This is so because when one is trying to connect himself with Hashem, but if he does not know who he himself is, then how can he know whom he is actually connecting to Hashem?!

A person may collect many thousands of mitzvos. He can do a chessed here. Learn a Torah there. Daven a little here. And do a little hisbodedus there. But in the end, all he has is a random collection of good things. What he lacks is any nekuda merkazis, any central point, which unifies and directs all of his avodah. He has no briach hatichon which brings together all of the disparate parts of his life and himself that allows him to build the mishkan in his heart.

The person doesn't work on himself "derech binyan," the way one builds a building; step by step with one step built upon the one before. Rather, he is just chapping mitzvos whenever he feels the desire to do so.

The key to connecting to Hashem, then, is first to know yourself. Only by knowning one's true self can one know Hashem. My rebbe compared it to a journey whereby one gets to know his own neshama, his own true self, by going through a series of doors, that lead to deeper and deeper levels within himself. Each door that he enters represents truer and deeper levels of knowing himself better. But when he gets to the last door, what is written on it? "The Ribbon Kol Olamim, Baruch Hu." "The Master of All Worlds, Blessed is He." Memeila, automatically, when one understands himself, then every door he opens within himself ultimately leads to Hashem, the Chelek Elokah Mima'al Mamash, the neshamah of all neshamos, the Soul that animates all souls.

Learning exactly how to acquire this self knowledge is the subject of the Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh Sefer. But in particular, the new sefer by the same author, Da Es Atzmecha, focuses on acquiring this self knowledge that is key to achieving closeness with Hashem.

IY"H, with these resources, we should be zocheh to know ourselves and, thereby, to know Hashem.

-Dixie Yid

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Monday, March 17, 2008

Sipur- The World to Come Only Contains What We Value in This World


I think that this story (from Sippuri Chassidim, p. 264-65) is one of the most important Chassidish stories that there are. It's message is so nogeiah to us and it's also straight out of what seems to be "the biggest chiddush" from the Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh seforim.

The Chiddushi Harim and a few of his Chassidim had to get to Kotzk for Shabbos. Now the Chiddushi Harim never traveled late Friday afternoon, lest he get stuck somewhere for Shabbos. Therefore, when the wagon he and his Chassidim were riding in got a broken wheel Friday morning, he was concerned that perhaps they should just stop there and make Shabbos in the nearest town. However, as he was repairing the wheel, the Wagon Driver assured them that they would still make it in plenty of time for Shabbos.

The Rebbe asked him to do his best to get there as early before Shabbos as possible, because it was very important to be there as early. They driver told him that he would do his best. He rushed and pushed the horses to go as fast as possible. Unfortunately, early Friday afternoon one of the two horses died from the strain. Brokenhearted, the driver pleaded with the Rebbe not to stop there for Shabbos, but rather to stay with him and he would still get the Rebbe to Kotzk well before Shabbos. The Rebbe reluctantly agree and they went on their way. And indeed, they did get there in plenty of time before Shabbos.

The Rebbe and Chassidim made Shabbos in Kotzk. But Friday night, after Shabbos had already begun, someoene in informed the Rebbe that the second horse, belonging to the driver, had also died from the strain of the trip. Knowing that virtually this entire man's source of livlihood had been lost due to his desire to be moser nefesh to get them there for Shabbos, the Chiddushei Harim had a messenger sent to the driver that as soon as Shabbos was over, the Chassidim would get some money together and buy him two new horses to pull his wagon. Unfortunatley, before the messenger was able to get to the man, he (the driver) was niftar, passed away, from the strain of the trip and brokenheartedness at losing both of his horses.

The Chidushei Harim told over that at this very simple Jew's Din Torah, heavenly trial, there were many many prosecuting angels due to the many aveiros, sins, that man had committed. However, since he was so ignorant, there were virtually no defending angels, since he had hardly done any mitzvos at all in his whole life. However, one very powerful defending angel spoke up and said, "It is not fitting that a man who was moser nefesh, sacrified, his whole source of livlihood and his very life as well for the sake of a Tzadik and for the sake of Shabbos should be punished in Geheinom! Due to his arguments, the heavenly court decided that indeed, he would not be punished with Geheinom for his aveiros. But on the other hand, he could not go to Gan Eiden either, because of his paucity of mitzvos. Therefore, they decided that he would be place in an intermediate place called the "Olam Hadimyon," the "World of Illusion." In this world, he would not realize that he had died, and would experience his greatest physical pleasure, the only kind of pleasure he knew, which was that he would be placed on a brand new wagon with four healthy stallions pulling the wagon. He would drive forever down wide, open, smooth roads, and would always have good weather.

In this version of the story, the Chiddushei Harim says that out of a sense of Hakaras Hatov, appreciation, for everything that the man had done for he and his Chassidim, he arranged that the man's eyes would be opened and that he would realize that he was dead, and would then be zocheh to enter Gan Eden and at least experience genuine schar, reward, of Deveikus with Hashem, closeness with Hashem on his own level.

To me, this is one of the most fundamental ma'asim I know, because it brings hope the point that if the only pleasures that mean anything to us in this world are physical pleasures, then the only thing available for us as reward in the World of Truth will be the same empty physical pleasures. It's scary but it's true. If you and I embrace the "World of Illusion" that we live in now, it may be the only world that we will ever have access to! We've got to unplug ourselves from a life where the only things that get us really going are a good meal, a vacation, a chance to "veg," new furniture, new clothes or whatever other empty pleasures there are. Even if we keep the mitzvos, but if they are not our source of chiyus, of life, then we're in trouble.

Hashem, please don't let us end up like that wagon driver, where the only things that mean anything to us are empty shells of hollow enjoyment. Let us get pleasure and Deveikus and Chiyus in this world from your Torah and your Mitzvos. That way, not only will we enjoy closeness to You in this world, but we will in the World of Truth as well!

-Dixie Yid

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Monday, February 11, 2008

Acquiring Independent Love of Hashem


As I discussed in a previous post, Rav Shwartz in Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh teaches us that acquiring even dependant love of Hashem is a high level that we must strive for, and that this is a necessary prerequesite to attaining independent love of Hashem.

As I related, dependent love of Hashem is acquired by recognizing that everything that happens to us is good, whether it be the "good" or the "bad" things. He said that one can accomplish this by either by believing that even the "bad" things have some hidden good which will be revealed later, or by the higher level of realizing that we have no hasagah, no conception, of what is truly good, whether it be in the "good" things, much less the "bad" things. And this realization will help a person let go of his expectation to understand in what way Hashem's treatment of him is good. One then uses his daily practice of talking to Hashem throughout the day to use his recognition of the good Hashem does to him as a way of acquiring a love for the One who bestowed that good.

But at this high level, how can this be called dependent love of Hashem? Since the person recognizes that no matter what Hashem does to him, it is good, it seems that that love is not dependant on what Hashem dishes out to him! What could be higher than this?! So Rav Shwartz explains that once one has used the recognition of Hashem's goodness towards him to attain Ahavas Hashem, he is ready to work on the next level, attaining Independent love of Hashem. so what is that?

The person's neshama, soul, is a chelek Elokah Mi'ma'al, a "part" of G-d above. The Baal Hatanya says at the beginning of the second perek of Tanya: "ונפש השנית בישראל היא חלק אלוה ממעל ממש כמ"ש ויפח באפיו נשמת חיים ואתה נפחת בי וכמ"ש בזוהר מאן דנפח מתוכיה נפח פי' מתוכיותו ומפנימיותו." "The second soul in a Jewish person is a literal 'piece' of G-d above. As it says, 'And He blew into his nostrils the breath of life.' And as it says in the Zohar, 'When one blows, he blows from within himself.' Meaning: From that which is within him and his inner [essence]."

And it is also true that the Zohar says, "קב"ה ואורייתא וישראל חד היא," Hashem, the Torah, and the Jewish people are one." Therefore, the only way to truly love Hashem in a way that does not depend on anything in the world, and thinking about or evaluating whether it is good or bad, is by uncovering, revealing, and connecting to one's own Neshama. It is by recognizing that I am my Neshama, not my guf, my body, or my desires or anything else. But that the real me is "my" neshama. For more on this, see Rav Shwartz's recent series of shiurim and the book based on them, Da Es Atzmecha, which I posted about here.

Once I learn to truly know myself, to connect to my neshama, then I will have revealed that part of me that is already one with Hashem. And when I am conscious of the fact that I am one with Hashem, then mimeila, automatically, I will attain a love of Hashem that is independent, an ahava "שאינה תלויה בדבר", that does not depend on anything. One cannot help but love himself, it is built into our self-definition.

It's a tall order, but as Rav Shwarzt writes about in Bilvavi, with steady work over a period of time, you and I can attain Ahavas Hashem.

-Dixie Yid

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Thursday, February 7, 2008

How to Attain Love of Hashem - Bilvavi



Rav Shwartz, in Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh, Vol. 2, perek 23, writes about attaining Ahavas Hashem, love of Hashem. He points out the well known fact that there are two types of love; dependant love and independant love (Avos 5:16- כל אהבה שהיא תלויה בדבר--בטל דבר, בטלה אהבה; ושאינה תלויה בדבר, אינה בטילה לעולם). One of the things that's so great about learning Bilvavi is that Rav Shwartz just gives over the most simple, and yet profound ideas from a new and refreshing angle that I'd never heard before. He says that this is really a two-stage process.

I'd always looked at the Mishna in Avos as saying that you should strive not to be like one who loves Hashem with a dependant love, but rather, you should love Hashem independant of anything. But Rav Shwartz says that instead, dependent love is one necessary and extreemly important stage along the path to attaining independent love of Hashem. This idea of looking at אהבה שהיא תלויה בדבר, dependent love as an ideal to be strived for, was new to me. I don't know whether this will be true of others or not, but this is a major point.

So how does one attain dependent love and independent love? And what's the difference between them, exactly?

He says that one attains dependent love of Hashem by meditating each day (during the Bilvavi's recommended 1 hour hisbonenus & periodic brief hisbonenus'n throughout the day) on the good things (hatava) that Hashem does for him. Hashem gives a person all of the physical things he has, all of the emotional blessings and health that he has, and all of the kochos that allow him to "accomplish" all of the things that he accomplishes. By thinking about this, the person should ask himself, "Why is Hashem doing all of this for me? It must only be because He loves me." And this constant recognition of all that Hashem does for him will create a feeling of love for Hashem.


One problem with this is that to the extent that a person experiences yisurin, suffering, he will not feel that Hashem is doing good to him. And this, in turn, will prevent him from attaining Ahavas Hashem.

There are two methods of overcoming this difficulty when trying to attain Ahavas Hashem, notwithstanding the yissurin, on the road to attaining dependent love. Both represent two different ways of seeing how the yissurin, the "bad" things, are really "good," and are another way of Hashem doing good to/for the person.

One method is for the person to think of other times in his life when something "bad" happened to him, and he was very upset about it at the time. And then, the person looks back and sees how, after time, this event turned out to be good in the end. A person can then think, "Just like all of those other times where I saw how something "bad" that happened to me turned out to be Hashem actually doing "good" to me, so too, today's yissurin also are Hashem doing something good to/for me." And this can allow the person to avoid his yissurin being an obstacle to attaining ahava hateluya b'davar, dependent love.

The other way is to realize that not only do we not understand how the "bad" is really good, but also to realize that we don't even understand how the "good" is good!!! Tehillim 92:6: "מְאֹד עָמְקוּ מַחְשְׁבֹתֶיךָ." "You're thoughts are very deep." If you think about how you are finite and you can never even hope to comprehend the depth of the good done by the Infinite One, much less how the "bad" that He does is really good. When one is mevatel themselves and connects to Emunah, and doesn't even try to use his intellect to understand why or how what Hashem does is for his benefit, for the good, then he can truly believe and feel that everything Hashem does is good, and use that to attain love of Hashem.

He says that this second level of attaining dependent Ahavas Hashem is the closest thing to Ahava She'eina t'luya b'davar, independent love. This is so since it is not really dependent on one's specific circumstances in life. No matter what those circumstances are, he uses those circumstances as evidence of how Hashem does good to him, and he uses this to attain Ahavas Hashem.



He goes on to also explain what independent love is, and how to attain it, but this post is already too long, so IY"H, I will write about that at another time. May we merit to work on attaining Ahavas Hashem, whether dependent or independent!

-Dixie Yid

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Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Awareness of Hashem - The Bilvavi Way - Guest Post


The following is a comment left on Reb Yerachmiel's shiur from this morning. It is a must-must-must read for anyone wanting to accomplish what must be accomplish when learning Torah. It includes two articles by Rabbi Boroch Leff (And thank you to Jasmine for pointing out the identity of the author of the articles).

I got a hold of these two articles relevant to the shiur, printed in Yated Neeman a few months ago.

Hashem Awareness Even When Learning Torah: The Bilvavi Way

Perhaps you were surprised by the title: Even when learning Torah? Isn’t it obvious that when we learn Torah we are performing a mitzvah and are very much aware of Hashem? Let me tell you a story which will explain the title.
The famous Rav Shmelka of Nikolsburg was once learning in the beis medrash alongside his equally famous brother Rav Pinchas Horowitz, author of the seforim HaMakneh and Haflaah. Rav Pinchas noticed that every so often, the shammas of Rav Shmelke would interrupt Rav Shmelke and whisper something into his ear. After a number of times of watching this, Rav Pinchas couldn’t contain his curiosity bordering on anger at the shammas for interrupting his brother’s learning.
Rav Pinchas finally asked his brother what the shammas was saying to him, “Why do you permit him to continuously interrupt your learning?! Tell him of the prohibition of bitul Torah—that he shouldn’t waste any of your time, especially when you are learning in the beis medrash!”
Rav Shmelke responded, “My brother, you misunderstand. I told my shammas to do it. You see, when I learn Torah, there are times that I get so involved in what I’m learning and I enjoy it so much that I forget there’s a Ribbono Shel Olam! I told my shammas that every so often, even when I’m learning, he should whisper in my ear, ‘There is a Ribbono Shel Olam!’ This is what brings me back to the purpose of my learning Torah—to understand Hashem and His will better and to attach myself to Him!”

A poignant story. The story’s lesson is related to what the Kotzker Rebbe once said, “The Torah prohibits us from doing avoda zara. . .even of the Torah itself!” This means that we can’t allow our Torah learning to take on a life of its own. We must always learn with a real and continuous awareness of why we are learning and for whom we are learning.

This does not mean that we must meditate upon Hashem at every moment. Certainly, when we learn, we must concentrate and attempt to understand what Rashi and Tosafos and the Rashba are saying. But, as Rav Shlomo Brevda, shlita, once told me, in order to maximize the hashpaah, the powerful spiritual influence that Torah study can have upon our souls and our midos, we must fulfill the requirements of Rav Chaim Volozhin in the Nefesh HaChaim (Shaar 4:6): “This is the proper true path that Hashem has chosen. Whenever a person prepares himself to learn Torah, he should sit down before he learns, at least for a short time, with a pure heartfelt fear of Hashem, and confess his sins from the depths of his heart, so that his Torah will be more pure and holy. He should then have in mind that he will attach himself to Hashem through learning His Torah, because by studying the word of Hashem, halacha, with all one’s strength, with this one attaches himself to Hashem as much as possible. This is because He and His will (the Torah) are One.”

The Nefesh HaChaim (4:7) continues: “Before learning Torah, a person should think about Hashem with purity of heart and fear of Him, and cleanse himself with thoughts of repentance, so that He can connect and attach himself to the will of G-d when he learns. He should also accept upon himself to observe and fulfill all that is written in the entire Torah. . .he should pray that Hashem will lead him to discover the truth of Torah.”
“This should be done even in the middle of learning. Permission is given to interrupt regular learning subjects, for a short time, before the passion of the fear of Hashem becomes extinguished from his heart, (to reignite) all that he accepted upon himself before he began learning. He should think again of the fear of Hashem. . .This is not bitul Torah, because it is necessary in order for the Torah to have a lasting impact.”
This approach to Torah study is vital in order to avoid the warning of the Kotzker Rebbe mentioned above. By actively and directly connecting our Talmud Torah to the Ribbono Shel Olam in a real sense, and not merely in a general, disconnected way, the learning becomes a vehicle for true dveikus with Hashem.

Rav Shlomo Wolbe, ztl, writes similar thoughts in Alei Shur (Volume 2, page 106). He says that there are many ways to learn Torah—iyun, bekius, pilpul, in-depth analysis, general factual knowledge. But there is also a ‘Yiras Shamayim’ way of learning. This path does not negate any of the others but accompanies them. Every sugya and subject in Shas has the fear of Hashem within it if we only pay attention to it. All of the decrees from the rabannan are derived from a fear of Hashem not to transgress His Torah.
Rav Wolbe continues, a person can inject fear of Hashem into all that he learns. Frequently, the gemara says ‘Amar Mar—the (anonymous) Master said.’ The Midrash Tanchuma says that Mar refers to Hashem! Thus, instead of saying Mar, when learning the gemara, one should substitute the words Amar HaKadosh Baruch Hu! and then state the halacha the gemara mentions! This is the path and method that Rav Yisrael Salanter utilized to directly connect what he was learning to Hashem and His ratzon. This is how we can discover yirah and mussar in whatever we learn.

The Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh states that fulfilling the Nefesh HaChaim’s guide to Torah learning is a major component to the mitzvah of shivisi Hashem l’negdi samid, I set Hashem before me always (Tehillim 16:8). Though the Rema begins Shulchan Aruch by saying this avodah of shivisi is among the maalos of tzadikim, the highest levels of the righteous, the Biur HaGra there says, ‘This concept includes all the levels of the righteous—vezehu kol maalos hatzadikim!’

If we want to Grow. . .UP, we must work on trying to feel Hashem’s presence at all times, and as we’ve seen, this applies even when we are learning Torah.

May this article be a zechus for a refuah shlaimah b’karov to Yehudis Sarah bas Esther.


Hashem Awareness Even When Learning Torah-Part 2
The Bilvavi Way


What is the goal of life? Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh (Volume 3) states that we must crystallize the answer to this question before we can progress in our service of Hashem. Now, we think the answer to this question is very obvious—most people would say the goal of life is to involve ourselves in mitzvos, and to learn Torah in order to know Shas and poskim. But the Ramchal writes differently.
In Mesilas Yesharim, right in the beginning of the first perek, the Ramchal says the goal of life is to ‘l’hisaneg al Hashem’, to derive pleasure from being close to Hashem. We are to put all of our drives into coming close to Hashem, to the ultimate extent of being drawn like a magnet to Him. This doesn’t mean, says Bilvavi, that we are not supposed to learn as much Torah as we can at every possible moment, trying to know Shas and poskim. As Chazal say, the world only continues to exist through the merit of learning Torah. But we must realize that the purpose of all of our learning is to attach ourselves to Hashem.
There are those who say that since the Zohar says that HaKadosh Baruch Hu, Oraysa, V’Yisrael Chad Hu—Hashem, the Torah, and the Jewish people are one, then when we learn Torah, we are anyway attaching ourselves to Him, whether we intend to or not. If we are attached to the Torah, we are attached to Hashem.
But Bilvavi points out that one can’t consciously ignore dveykus B’Hashem even when learning Torah, because according to this thinking, then when we’re involved and attached to other Jews, or when we’re attached to ourselves, we’re also attached to Hashem. After all, the Zohar says Yisrael V’Hashem is also chad hu. Rather, even when learning Torah, we must make a conscious effort to be cognizant of the goal which Torah learning is supposed to produce—dveykus b’Hashem.

This is what we cited from the Nefesh HaChaim last week, “Before learning Torah, a person should think about Hashem with purity of heart and fear of Him, and cleanse himself with thoughts of repentance, so that He can connect and attach himself to the will of G-d when he learns. He should also accept upon himself to observe and fulfill all that is written in the entire Torah. . .he should pray that Hashem will lead him to discover the truth of Torah. . . .This should be done even in the middle of learning. Permission is given to interrupt his regular learning subjects, for a short time, before the passion of the fear of Hashem becomes extinguished from his heart, (to reignite) all that he accepted upon himself before he began learning. He should think again of the fear of Hashem. . .This is not bitul Torah, because it is necessary in order for the Torah to have a lasting impact.”

Rav Shimshon Pincus (Nefesh Shimshon-Torah V’Kinyaneha, page 218) says that if a person wants to be able to learn Torah with an awareness of Hashem, he should make sure to recite the tefila from Chazal that is designed to be said before we learn Torah. The Mishna in Brachos 28b says that Rav Nechunya ben Hakanah would recite a tefila before he entered the beis midrash to learn Torah. The tefila was comprised of a request that he become successful to discover the truth of Torah and avoid any obstacles that would stand in the way of this goal. He would also say a tefila after he left the beis midrash thanking Hashem for the merit to be able to learn Torah.
The Mishna Berura (110:37) brings the Rambam in the Peirush Mishnayos who says that reciting this tefila is an absolute obligation because the mishna did not tell us what Rav Nechunya did to simply tell us a story; rather, the mishna is telling us what we must do to emulate Rav Nechunya. Rav Pincus declares that whoever says this tefila is guaranteed to be successful in his learning.
Rav Pincus continues to say that when we learn we should envison Hakadosh Baruch Hu Himself as our chavrusa, learning with us. The Nefesh Hachaim shows from many statements in Chazal that when we learn Torah, Hashem is mouthing the words along with us. He is literally with us—and we must be fully cognizant of this attachment with Him we can attain when we learn, if we seek it.
Learning without an awareness of Hashem is the issue which was responsible for the destruction of the land of Israel. The Ran mentions in the name of Rabbeinu Yona an explanation of the Gemara in Nedarim 81a which expounds a pasuk in Yirmiyahu which says that the destruction occurred because "they abandoned my Torah" [9:12] to mean the fact that Jews did not recite the blessing before learning Torah. Rabbeinu Yona explains that the reason why the Gemara did not want to interpret the pasuk literally (that people abandoned the Torah and simply did not learn it at all), was because the Gemara previously mentioned that prophets and scholars were consulted and they didn’t have an interpretation of the pasuk. This could not have been the case if Jews didn’t learn Torah at all—it would have been noticeable then.

Therefore, Rabbeinu Yona explains that "they abandoned my Torah" must not refer to something obvious or evident. This is why the gemara says it was necessary for Hashem Himself to reveal to us the nature of the sin.

Rabbeinu Yona continues by explaining as follows: that generation certainly occupied themselves with constant Torah learning, but people did not recite the bracha over learning Torah. This means that they did not consider Torah exalted enough to be worthy of a bracha. People did learn Torah. Everyone had fixed times for studying Torah. However, they did not consider the Torah learning as a holy pursuit so. They did not recite the bracha over Torah because they didn’t learn with the goal of attaching themselves to G-d. They learned merely out of enjoyment.
We must learn with Hashem awareness if our learning is to help us grow. . .UP!

May this article be a zechus for a refuah shlaimah b’karov to Yehudis Sarah bas Esther.

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Torah & Devaikus Ba'Hashem: (Re)Uniting the Two- Audio Shiur


In this week's shiur, Reb Yerachmiel continued an analysis of the fourth bracha of Shemoneh Esrei, "Atah Chonain". In doing so he discussed the most fundamental of differences between chachmas ha'goyim and chachmas Ha'Torah, namely, contact with and a connection to, a living, real Hashem, and taught-over a vital and breathtaking perek from Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh (Chelek Alef, Perek 133) which instructs us how a Jew on any level can immediately immerse himself in Torah-study and simultaneously be davuk to Hashem.

Also, at the beginning of the shiur there's the chevrah over there sing Shlomo Carlebach's Niggun Neshama. Very worthwhile!

The Shiur is in two parts. To listen online, click HERE FOR PART ONE and HERE FOR PART TWO.

To download, click HERE FOR PART ONE and HERE FOR PART TWO.

Update: For anyone who wants to understand more about what Reb Yerachmiel is saying in this shiur about how to accomplish what is meant to be accomplished when one is learning Torah, you must read these articles, which were left as a comment on this post.

-Dixie Yid

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Thursday, October 11, 2007

Torah and Tefillah: Our Connection to Creation and to The Creator - Downloadable Shiur


I am again pleased to offer, for your downloading pleasure, the latest shiur by our friend Reb Yechiel, from the Baltimore Community Kollel chaburah that is learning "Nefesh Shimshon on Tefillah." This shiur was given on Sunday night, Oct. 7, 2007.

The title is "Torah and Tefillah: Our Connection to Creation and to The Creator"
It's about our partnership with Hashem in the creation of "Yesh May'ayin" in the form of chidusshei Torah and heartfelt Tefillah. It serves as a hakdamah to next week's shiur/chaburah which begins talking about the first bracha of Shimoneh Esrei, and also ties in to Parshas Bereishis, with a little taste of Chanukkah as well. You can download the shiur from here. You can left click on the link to listen online or right click to download. Let me know if there are problems.

-Dixie Yid

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Monday, October 8, 2007

Higher Levels of Yirah & Clarification of "The Biggest Chiddush"


I was learning Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh vol. 2 (Chapter 16 and Bilvavi Vol. 4, chapter 1), and I think that his explanation of the 5 types of Yirah, as outlined in the Mesilas Yesharim, shed some more light on his statement that if one isn't consciously Daveik to Hashem in this world, he will not truly be Daveik to Hashem in the next world (that we have discussed earlier here and here).

He explains the difference between the two highest levels of Yirah, Yiras Haromemus and Yiras Chait. He says that Yiras Haromemus is greater than the three lower levels of Yirah because it is focused on fear of doing anything wrong against Hashem, whereas the three lower levels all focused on different levels of fear centering around one's self. However, Yiras Haromemus means that the person is only Daveik to Hashem when he is learning or doing Mitzvos, but not when he is doing divrei reshus. I have come to the understanding that when Rav Shwartz is speaking about being Daveik to Hashem, Deveikus here means a constant consciousness of Hashem's immediate presence. When the person who has attained Yiras Haromemus is davening, doing a mitzvah, or learning, he feels the immediate presence of Hashem. This consciousness automatically results in a fear of doing anything to wrong Hashem. This is the level of Yiras Haromemus.

On the other hand, Yiras Cheit is the constant awareness of Hashem's immediate presence, even when doing "divrei reshus," mundane things. In this context of this explanation, though, I think that I have gotten more of a handle of how the Bilvavi seforim define Deveikus. It is not necessarily an emotional feeling (serenity, pleasure, fear, excitation, etc.), but rather it is a constant consciousness of Hashem's immediate presence.

He says that if one does not have know this experience of constant awareness of Hashem's immediate presence, then he will be at a loss when the time for reward comes. When all of the other Tzaddikim are sitting and enjoying the radiance of the Divine Presence while pointing, k'vayachol, at Hashem and saying, "This is the G-d that we have hoped for!", this person will not know what to make of the whole situation (Brachos 17a: צדיקים יושבין ועטרותיהם בראשיהם ונהנים מזיו השכינה... זה ה' קוינו לו".) Since he has no personal experience with the Divine Presence (though he's lived a life of Torah and Mitzvos) he will have the experience of not really being sure that the G-d that everyone is "pointing" at is really the G-d he's been hoping for. Hashem will be somewhat of a stranger to him. (Although he will be rewarded for every mitzvah and every word of Torah, this will still be his experience when it comes to Hano'oh mi'ziv Hashechina.)

May this deeper understanding of the meaning of Deveikus with Hashem and this sober understanding of what our foucus and goal should be in life, may we be zocheh to attain the Deveikus with Hashem that Rav Shwartz describes!

-Dixie Yid

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Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Sukkos - Holding on to Hashem's Embrace - Audio


I am happy to post Reb Yerachmiel's next shiur in this givaldigeh Baltimore Chaburah. It was given two days ago, on September 30, 2007 and is on the topic, "Sukkos: Locking-in Hashem's Embrace." I'm embeding the audio below and you can download the mp3 file for your mp3 player RIGHT HERE. Shkoyach to Reb Yerachmiel for agreeing to let me post this shiur! Enjoy!

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-Dixie Yid

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Thursday, September 20, 2007

Yitz's Take on "The Biggest Chiddush" & the Marriage Relationship


Yitz, from A Waxing Wellspring has added to our conversation on the Bilvavi's bombshell relelation to use about the reality of attaining deveikus with Hashem in this world with a great piece today. I'll copy/paste his introductory paragraph but I hope that you will read his whole piece youself!

Althoguh his piece focuses on a different nekuda than my anonymous friend, I think his thoughts are well worth the read.

"Dixie Yid brought down from the Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh yesterday that our level of enjoyment (עונג) in the next world is directly related to our enjoyment of mitzwoth and Torah (and HaShem) in this world.

A Simple Jew also mentioned the crisis of men whose wives are in nidah.

I wanted to learn zchut on klal Yisrael, so this morning in my tefillah I had an insight into both of these matters, and they are directly related."

-Dixie Yid

The Biggest Chiddush - Clarification


I wanted to share a very thoughtful e-mail that I received from a very thoughtful reader. He wanted to remain anonymous so I'm not sharing his name. But I think that the different and perhaps more accurate way that he explains "The biggest chiddush" in the Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh seforim on a certain nekuda, relative to the way I explained it in this post, is a must-read:

Kirvas Elokim Le Tov.

I took yet another look back at the language, and my understanding of perakim 39 and 53 is different- it's not so much the "ta'anug" element at all, but rather more the "devaykus" component, i.e. the consciousness of Hashem with the framework of Torah, mitzvos and every element of our lives (even the "mundane"). Thus for example, in your 2nd paragraph, I would have thought it should instead read:

In volume 1, in the 39th and 53rd Perakim, the author points out that most people think that even if they do not have very much Deveikus with Hashem that comes from learning Torah and doing mitzvos, we will get the reward of Deveikus in the higher levels of the world to come. This is exactly what I thought before learning Bilvavi.

Similarly, in the 4th paragraph: He taught that the ta’anug from Kirvas Hashem that results from Torah and mitzvos that we have learned about is meant to exist DURING OUR LIFETIMES! And that if you’re neshama is so desensitized that it cannot feel the ta’anug of Kirvas Hashem in this life, you will not attain the Kirvas Hashem and hano'oh meziv Hashechina in the higher levels of Gan Eiden either.

I didn't want to contradict the host. However, I hope you might take another look at those perakim and you might agree that the emphasis is not "ta'anug" but rather devaykus. It seems that those who have responded to your post are honing in the "ta'anug" component which I don't believe is the emphasis there. Plus, "ta'anug" can mean, and manifest itself, in a lot of different ways. Sure, devaykus is a form of ta'anug and ta'anug can be a form of devaykus, but I understood the 39/53 chiddush stresses closeness to Hashem in this world and how that closeness to Hashem correlates and carries over, be'ezras Hashem, to the next world.

I'll certainly understand if you disagree and apologize if I am mistaken, but I think the true chiddush is: Elevated heights in olam habah, i.e. devaykus in olam habah, is rewarded in accordance with one's devaykus to Hashem Yisbarach in olam hazeh (as opposed to just fulfillment of mitzvos and how many mitzvos one can amass over and above aveiros per Hashem's hidden cheshbin, as most of us grew up understanding it).

(Picture is from the cover of Zev Reichman's book, collecting teachings of Rav Moshe Wolfson, Shlita, Flames of Faith)